| Date: | 2004 |
| Location: | San Francisco, CA |
| Category: | Breakups |
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The one thing that stays mine
Since Clarity, the release date of every Jimmy Eat World album seems to correlate to specific, pivotal times of my life. Clarity was falling in love for the first time. Bleed American was the first of many beach trips with my wife-to-be. And Futures would be the beginning of the end of that marriage.
Futures came out in October of 2004. The following weekend I wore it out on our first trip to San Francisco. It was the soundtrack for that trip. The title track was the flight there. Kill was the lobby of our Chinatown hotel. Pain was staying up all night drinking and snorting. Drugs or Me was the regret of the following morning.
The last track, 23, was the flight home. And it's haunted me ever since. In that beautiful city I think we both felt a disconnect from one another. Childhood lovers who had to grow up. Who couldn't figure it out so they parted ways. Still haven't figured it out.
"I'm still driving away and I'm sorry every day.... I won't always love what I'll never have. I won't always live in my regret."
35 days ago